Helpful Messages from Within

I had a dream recently that shows how dreams address issues that are occurring in the present with the intention of adding to our consciousness and through that helping us to better approach those issues.  It’s also a dream whose messages seemed clearer to me than those of other dreams I’ve had, messages presented by the dream’s symbolic imagery and actions.  Here is my dream:

I’m driving my car and I realize my brakes are no longer working.  Thankfully, I’m driving slowly and I’m able to park the car against a curb.  Just before I make a call to have my car towed to where I usually have it serviced, I see there’s an auto repair shop right near where I happened to park.  I go into the repair shop and approach a man and a woman who are standing behind a counter.  As I begin telling them the situation and asking whether they can fix the brakes, the man looks at the woman, who is younger than he is, and tells her to tell me how long she has worked there.  It turns out she is his daughter and is also a mechanic, and it’s as if he wants me to ask her about doing the job instead of asking him, perhaps so that I’m reassured of her ability to make the repairs.  I woke up at that point.

I had this dream at a time when I was feeling some anxiety about some changes at my job.  I found myself thinking about scenarios that might happen as a result of those changes, including my being so busy I’d have difficulty keeping up with the work.  When I found myself doing this, I would remind myself that my concerns about the changes might not have a basis, that I would need to see how things went and then address any problems, and that I should make an effort to focus on what was happening in the present.  I would do that but before long the concerning thoughts would return.

Dreams often have layers of meaning.  At one level, I think the symbolism of the brakes not working might have been the dream’s message to me that I needed to “put the brakes on” my negative and somewhat obsessive thinking.  We can’t control the thoughts that come to us, but we can decide how to deal with them in a healthy way.  And I have to admit that, even though I would remind myself to focus on something that mattered, I would sometimes not make an effort to do that right away.  So I believe a related message of this dream was that I should make a more sincere effort to stop wasting time and energy on the thoughts, and by doing that I would be taking care of myself emotionally.

Another significant part of the dream is that, without at first being aware of it, I had parked my car next to an auto repair shop where there were mechanics who would be able to repair the brakes.  I believe this is a reminder that help is always available to me, help from within.  We can think of that help as being from our psyches, to put it in psychological terms, and/or from our Creator, to put it in religious or spiritual terms.  Another meaningful aspect of the dream was the presence of and emphasis on the female mechanic.  She symbolizes the inner feminine, a supportive inner presence.  I also think the fact that she is a young adult might be a reminder to me to be open to looking at things in a different way from how I usually do, to consider “new” approaches instead of repeating old patterns.

According to Jungian psychological theory, dreams are one way unconscious contents are able to be integrated into consciousness.  Even when symbols and the actions in dreams are more difficult to discern than those of this dream, dreams have a purpose for each of us.  This dream helped me to recognize the importance of taking care of myself by not dwelling on “what if” thinking and was a reminder of the inner help from a source that cares about my wellbeing.  It helped me to be reminded of that.

Learning to Live with Ambiguity 

“Learning to live with ambiguity is learning to live with how life really is, full of complexities and strange surprises.”

This quote is by James Hollis from his book What Matters Most:  Living a More Considered Life.  Dr. Hollis is a Jungian analyst, author, and speaker.  He has written several books, all of which I highly recommend.

As is the case for many people, I struggle with ambiguity, even though I have lived long enough to know that, as Dr. Hollis says, ambiguity is “how life really is.”  Part of the difficulty is that western culture emphasizes that answers to problems we encounter are clear and straightforward and that we can be in control of what happens in our lives.  There is a sense of security and comfort in those ideas, but there are many times when that is not the case because life is not that simple.  It’s only when we acknowledge the complexities of life that we will be better able to respond in an effective way to things that occur.

One of the unexpected happenings I’ve experienced is a family member choosing to estrange herself from me.  I know from my work talking with people who call the crisis line and through reading I’ve done that estrangements are more common than I would have thought.  But even so I would never have expected it to happen in my family.  What added to the emotional hurt was not knowing the reason for the person’s decision to end any communication with me, and she would not talk with me about it.  I acknowledge that I make mistakes, but I couldn’t think of anything I had said or done that could have resulted in her decision to end our relationship.  After experiencing much sadness, self-questioning, wondering, and wishing it wasn’t happening, I needed to accept it as something not in my control to change and also that I would not be able to know the reasons for her decision.  I had grieved the loss and needed to move on, and to be thankful for the people in my life with whom I have close relationships.

Thankfully, not all of the unexpected happenings in our lives are as emotionally hurtful as that was for me.  Another experience about which I had various feelings and concerns was when I followed what I discerned to be a message from a dream I had that involved moving to the city where I live and work now.  Having grown up in a small town, attended college in a small city, and then worked in a mid-size city for a few years, I felt some discomfort at the idea of living in a large city.  I had that dream and moved to where I presently live 26 years ago, and much that is positive in my life has resulted from my living here.  I’m thankful I followed the dream direction.

As Dr. Hollis says, we need to learn to live with ambiguity in the various situations where it arises.  Rather than deceive ourselves that ambiguity is not part of life, we can remind ourselves that life’s unexpected occurrences are a natural part of our journey and they can result in changes that make our lives more meaningful.  They provide opportunities to develop qualities such as courage, patience, perseverance, creative problem solving, and empathy.  And at times they bring us unexpected joy.

We will all gain by being more open to life’s complexities and surprises and to the emotions they cause us to feel.  In this way we will live more genuine and grounded lives.